Hellooooooooooooo!
I have not been here in a longggg time! I almost didn't remember my password. I had to come back here because I felt myself going backwards and I needed a reminder to get myself back on track. First of all, I want to say thank you for still following me even though I have not posted in a year. Now here goes all my updates.....
So from my ticker on the side I am more than three years out from my surgery. At this point I sometimes feel like I never had the surgery except when I have to PB which I am doing more often these days. I have reached my highest weight gain since having surgery. I am back to 200 land pushing 210! smdh! thats a major sham...I am beating myself up for that and I know I shouldn't be. But as they say tomorrow is a new day....I've had too many "new days" so I eat...cheat....eat....cheat....its a constant cycle which has lead me back to my current weight. I wish I could go back to the mindset I had when I first had surgery...when it was all new...i was scared to eat....i worked out 6 days a week....i was losing a pound a day....yeah...I need those days back. I have so much on my mind that I'm not sleeping and definitely not eating right. Today, I had my last favorite lunch until I can reward myself with it again...in case you wanna know...i go to the Cheesecake Factory every wednesday for their super, uber, 10 million calorie baked potato soup....(oh yeah and a strawberry martini). Then, if I am having a good food day I eat a loaf of that brown bread....yeah BREAD! I know my band aint working if I'm eating bread! But, i'm not going to eat that again until I have lost 20 pounds. I have to commit to working out too. because i know for a fact that my body functions best when I am working out. I'm not gonna make this a pity party post because i've gained weight because I'm gonna get it back off!!! I did it once and I can do it again....DAMMIT!
This is me now...I took this pic on March 30, 2012.
Anyways...on a personal note...I finally got a boyfriend! We had our one year anniversary back in March. Although we are kind of on shaky terms right now...we are still together....??? I guess....LOL!
me and my Booski in January. We were on a cruise to the Bahamas.
I want to go back....
Oh...I also turned 38 years old on April 3, 2012...my how time flies. Here's a couple more pics of me hanging out to celebrate my birthday.
So i just wanted to come back and get some motivation to get these 30 pounds off that I have gained. I know you are saying 'girl please!' but I went through 4 pairs of pants this morning to find a pair that wasn't too tight so I've got to make this happen! I need a ticket band to 100's land ASAP!!
